I N T I M A T E F I X A T I O N
2021
Avoidance of intimacy can result in isolation and conflict with others. Many, including myself, struggle with the idea of intimacy, and this is highly reflective of the intmacy, or lack thereof, during the developmental stages of life. I have experienced abandonment, rejection and abuse, so my relationship to intimacy is skewed. My mother and father were very vocal when they were displeased and punished me when I made mistakes or showed any flaws. I always feared that others would treat me in the same way, so I created a masking personality where I’d adjust myself and how I act depending on who I was interacting with. This broke down my understanding of who I was as a person and made me into the obsessive person that I am. Obsession in a sense that everything was overthought and overanalyzed, and there was nothing that could stop my mind once it started running. Unsure of who I was, my identity became malleable and unstable. How do you create intimate relationships with others when you can’t comfortably be intimate with yourself?
Credits
Photography: Dawn Guo
Talent: Georgia
Hair: Queenie Hsiao
Set Assistant: Queenie Hsiao
